When I was 21 years old and just out of college, I knew exactly what I wanted to do. My plan was to be a director of marketing by the time I reached 30. Nine years later, I achieved that goal, but once I crossed the finish line, I wasn't all that happy with the destination. Was I really going to look back on my life five or ten years from then and be excited because I created some big marketing plan? I highly doubted it. Things felt empty and I was unfulfilled. So I started down a new path to follow my dream.

Five years later, I've laid the ground work for the next phase - school and two prestigious internships. But now what? I'm still no closer to knowing what I'm going to do next. There are so many options staring me in the face that I don't know which one to choose. Yes, a nice situation to be in, but still just as confusing. Part of me thought the right option would suddenly appear and I would know right there and then the path I was supposed to take. But that hasn't happened yet.

On June 30th, I have a return ticket to the US. So does this mean that this is the end of my Paris adventure? Part of me really wants to stay, but the other part wants to go home. But with either choice, I face the same dilemma. What am I going to do with my life. I need to get a job to start paying for my rather expensive education and lifestyle here in Paris.

It's really hard to think about leaving. The city has become like an old pair of shoes - comfortable and well worn. On some levels, I feel like I belong here. I love the culture, the commitment to food and wine, the lifestyle, and the pace.

But then there's home - family, friends, my house, cat, car, life. After being away from them for so long, I miss them like crazy.

So I guess this is where I need to have faith - my favorite word in the English language. I need to have faith that everything is going according to plan and that it's all going to be okay. I believe everything happens for a reason, and that I'm on my perfect path. I'll know the right opportunity when it comes along, even if they don't materialize when I think they should. I know the decisions I will make over the coming months won't be easy. But they will be the right ones. And even if they're not, no decision is permanent. I can always change my mind!!

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